Dressed down in a way that was--oddly--flattering, because it had to do with putting out.
Words, that is.
The other night, over sushi, a friend of mine who reads this blog regularly looked at me over his relatively untouched mound of Volcano Roll and said, "Why do you have a blog?"
I fidgeted with a hangnail on my thumb.
I'm a writer. I have an MFA in playwriting. My family plays joyfully, indulgently, with words (and we all suck at math, badly). I have written plays, I have written short stories, I have written impassioned, emotional over-the-top fuck-you letters to former friends (many of which were used merely as therapy and were never sent, mind you, although the temptation to stamp 'em and drop 'em in the nearest mailbox was enormous). So it makes a certain sense that I have a blog. In hindsight, perhaps a better inquiry would've been, "How come you don't update your blog regularly?"
Well, oy vey. What can I say? Laziness? Some, but not just. Perhaps an overall momentary lack of creativity....it's like the whole Facebook thing: do I rate--and is it interesting, but really?--if I don't have, you know, 500 friends in 25 different networks and constantly post every little thought, twitch, burp, fart and bowel movement? I mean, must I? And does anyone really care that much?
Can there be such a thing as too much narcissism?
Well, you know. Yeah. But that's how this 24/7 online look-at-me-cause I-matter, Madonna-as-Eva-Perone-singing-You-Must-Love-Me low self-esteem-isolated-virtual-culture of ours works.
Anyway, it was weirdly flattering, albeit a mite confrontational, because the message was: my writing, my thoughts, my take on my life or life in general is actually interesting enough to check up on fairly regularly and I actually have fans and God knows one mustn't disappoint one's fans....
Okay, forget the navel-gazing deconstruction. Actually, I think it's cause I'm still recovering from having been spanked by a drag nun on my birthday. Ha.
3 comments:
As one of your many fans who check in regularly I am so happy you have come back to us!
I get the same thing (see my most recent post) about Where Are You and Where Are More Photos?
It's fun, it's navel-gazing, it's communication. Mostly I think it's fun.
I fell into your blog while researching the Klute hairstyle concept, and ended up reading everything since July. Next time someone asks why you keep a blog, tell them "because my writing ROCKS!"
The only thing missing: a picture of that cute pixie cut.
I have to publish "anonymous" because I forgot my password -- but this is Catherine, 49, west coast mom, with hair desperately needing fun and sexiness.
Wow! Thanks, Catherine from the west coast! It's so cool that someone "anonymous" digs my writing! And thanks for letting me know that! I'm smiling!
Oh, and I can attest to the major boost that "fun & sexy" hair gives one's attitude....
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